Well, that didn't work.
I don't how long it is going to take to get it through my head - my body is very sensitive. It doesn't like big sweeping changes or chemical influences. (Unless it's Xanax. I need my Xanax.) The HCG drops weren't all that bad. They DID help with controlling hunger. Others might not have any of the problems I did, of course. I felt... stuffed. Not "Oh, I only get 250 calories this meal? That's okay. I'm stuffed!" That, I could have handled. I felt sloshy stuffed, that "I've had 25 weak beers - I'm not even drunk (rip off!), just sloshing liquid everywhere" feeling. I don't drink beer for that reason, so I'm not going to continue taking a chemical that does either. The daily nausea was too much.
On a really personal note, my period stopped. Now this reaction is likely a Me thing. If I get a sniffle, I'm late a week until my sinuses dry up. If I change my eating habits, from about 3,000 calories a day (my standard and why I'm fat), to 1000 or under, no period. I don't know about you, but when my period is late, I'm miserable. I'd rather have it and know that A) I'm not pregnant. Yay! and B) It will be over soon and take with it the bloating, cravings, moodiness, etc. The sooner, the better. For a minute, I almost thought I was pregnant due to the nausea and other symptoms. I am not, thankfully, and I don't want to be on anything that will make me feel that way.
When I was researching the HCG Diet, I saw people who have had success on it scoffing at doctors who encouraged a 1,000 calorie a day diet over the 500 calorie protocol. One thing they all had in common was the desire to lose as much weight as fast as possible. There were people who were actually saying, "You've only lost 15 pounds this week? Drop your calories and lose 25 pounds like I did! Those doctors just don't understand the science of it." Now, I've dealt with doctors, and they can be God-complex assholes with no bedside manner, but I'm fairly certain most know a thing or two about the biology of the human body. Not to mention the main clinical trials and studies for this diet were done in the 1950s. We've come a long way since then. Twenty-five pounds in one week just isn't normal; I don't care who you are. If it works for them and they can keep it off, let me know ten years from now and I'll happy dance with you.
So now what? You mean do what they've told me to do all along? Crap.
Okay, fine. Vegetables, fruits, portion control, drink water, and exercise. The one plan no one really wants to follow is the only way I'll likely be able to go. No more pills or chemicals, no more pregnancy hormones are going in my body. It's time to simply be smart. I don't have to be a scientist to know a fast food burger is not the healthy option for lunch. This is the new plan: eat better foods and move around more.
I've also decided to start a hobby. I picked sewing because it's something I've always wanted to do. I'm good with distractions, and learning something new, being creative again, and learning to focus on something different will go a long way in keeping me out of the kitchen. I've also looked up events and places in the area. I love museums and art galleries.
To be at my healthy weight (for age, height, blah, blah, blah), I need to lose 140 lbs. I NEED TO LOSE AN ENTIRE PERSON. It won't take 3 months. More like 1 year or two, and that's with dedication. But hey, I've got time - "If the Lord's willin' and the creek don't rise" as I've heard. Little by little.
I'm going to be just fine. :)
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