Yes, THAT diet...

Hello,

I'm not sure if anyone will read this, but I think it will help me in the long run to chronicle my actions. I decided to do the HCG Diet. For those of you who don't know what that is, HCG is the "pregnancy hormone." I am to take drops under my tongue three times a day with this HCG stuff. For two days, I load up on fatty foods - phase one. Phase two is a severely low calorie diet of 500 calories a day. Those 500 calories are made up of a very short list of food choices. (If you would like me to plainly explain the ins and outs and reasoning behind the diet, let me know.) Saturday and Sunday were my loading days. I was supposed to start the low calories today, but my spinach was, well, icky and dead about three days back. The bagged salad of Mom's I was going to use until pay day was also dead. All of which leads me to the conclusion that we should eat what is in our fridge more and go out less so everything doesn't die on us. I digress. Last night, I realized all of this too late to go buy anything. I decided to continue the drops and some loading today and start the low calories tomorrow. I have just enough in the bank to buy a giant thing of spinach. I have two apples that will suffice for tomorrow, and then Wednesday, I can go buy everything I need.


I've always been a fat kid, but this is the biggest I've ever been. If could be for a number of reasons. I sit in an office all day doing paperwork, never exercise, my depression meds and occasionally depressive episodes make weight loss difficult, and a boyfriend and his mother who insist I eat every cake or pie she makes. Not wanting to be rude to her, or him, I've eaten a lot this year we've been dating. Now, I've learned how to say no (perhaps a little too late, but that's a whole different blog.) I'm 28. If I don't start losing weight and taking preventative measures now, I will be in a bad situation by 30. I'm having trouble breathing and moving around now. I'd also like to quit smoking, but I feel that it would be stupid to attempt quitting the first week or two of a strict diet. I would implode. So instead, when I get paid, I'm going to buy these filter things I found. They go on the end of the built-in cigarette filter and take out more of the chemicals, etc, making it easier to breathe. I think if I start filtering more out, it'll be easier to transition to, well, plain air later. Too many people in my family die from pulmonary complications for me to continue smoking. And too many people in my family developed diabetes because of obesity.


Day One (Saturday):
I thought I'd like eating a lot... I did not. By Saturday night, I hated the thought of food. I'm not sure if the drops were working already to curb the appetite, or the fact that I HAD to eat made me not want to. Either way, I was glad the drops don't taste like urine or something. They are fairly tasteless, and I think they began to work pretty fast.


Day Two (Sunday):
So tired of eating!!! I looked it up online, and a lot of people say the load days, in retrospect, are the hardest. Being to fat, I feel bloated and "over-flowing" all the time any way, so I'm looking forward to eating less, to knowing exactly what I'll be eating, and not spending money on other food. Remind me in a week that I said this when I'm complaining about being hungry. :)


Day Three 10/29/12:
I'm supposed to be doing the low calorie thing, but have no funds for the food. I'll start it tomorrow. In the meantime, I must continue the drops today and load some more. My tummy is not happy. That's all I have to say about that.


Now that this blog - and some form of accountability - has been started, I will go back to work and find something to do. There's always a lull right before order days (tomorrow and Wednesday), but I feel certain I can find something.


About to get my skinny on,
R.